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21 November 2017

Chris Cornell



One morning in college I woke up to my clock-radio's alarm (pre-smartphone days) playing "I Am The Highway" on the radio. That was the beginning. In my state of semi-consciousness, I instantly recognized this piece of musical perfection. I thought to myself, "Okay. This is something special. This isn't just another song."  

The passing of Chris Cornell in May 2017 devastated me. I woke up to a news alert on my phone, and, in the early-morning darkness, unsure if I was actually awake or not, I immediately said, "No." Without even thinking, I posted the article on Facebook hoping that someone would feel the way I felt. Since that day, I have listened to and watched Chris Cornell every single day. Really, every day. Never before has the death of someone I've never met affected me so much.

I didn't realize how much his music meant to me until he was gone. He was, in my mind, for years, just one of many amazing musicians that I listened to regularly and admired. I never thought about Chris Cornell more than other musicians really, but his passing revealed to me that his music left an irremovable mark on my consciousness. And, strangely enough, this mark he left on me came only from his work with Audioslave; I didn't even get into Soundgarden or his solo material until this year. It goes to show, however, how truly incredible and powerful Audioslave's music is.

My thoughts and feelings around the passing of Chris Cornell can be mostly summed up by a random YouTuber's comment, something along the lines of: "What are these tears I cry for a man I have never met?"

Chris Cornell is a legend. His voice, his lyrics, his presence, his character, and now, his legacy... they are all inimitable and unforgettable.







05 June 2017

After Five Years


I was recently asked if I wish I had chosen to teach music instead (i.e., stuck with music). My response: "Nope." 

After five years of teaching, I feel like I've grown and learned more than I can even describe. That is exactly what I wanted. With music, I knew that I'd only grow musically (well, music teaches many life lessons, but I won't focus on that now). I wanted to do something that would make me grow on multiple levels. Teaching achieves that end.

It's a difficult job. It's underappreciated. The hours are long and we are constantly being observed, questioned, scrutinized, disrespected, blamed. You can't just know your content area really well to succeed at teaching (which in itself takes years of work), but you have to be good with people, too. You have to be able to read people, understand people, understand their incentives and motivations, understand what their actions mean, not take things personally, not hold grudges, not be afraid of conflict, not be afraid to lay down the law. You have to plan out everything (really, everything) and stand by and enforce your decisions. Speaking of decisions, I read recently that teachers make more minute-by-minute decisions than brain surgeons (which implies that we make more daily decisions than nearly every profession or job). You have extensive amounts of other tasks to complete besides planning lessons, grading, and working with students. Somehow, though—if you're tough and thoughtful and dogged in your efforts—you make it through the school year.

Today is my first day of freedom after another school year. This is always a time of self-reflection, a time to think about what went well, what could have been better, and what you will do to make next year better still. As I was cleaning up my classroom yesterday, waves of ideas rushed through my head about what I'll do next year to improve my practice and increase student achievement. In a weird way I felt like I could keep going, like I didn't really need summer break right now (even though I do). This school year was tough, and for a period of time I was feeling fairly negative. But I remember at a certain point I just decided to change my mindset and since then this was, unexpectedly, one of the best years yet despite new and unique challenges (such as having to teach out of three classrooms). I did better this year forming positive relationships with my students, and that led to so much else being better too.

Anyway, before I figure out how to be a normal person again, I felt like sharing some key revelations/discoveries after my five years about teaching, students, and the world of education. Here they are:

You have to innovate
I believe this realization occurred largely because I teach students in poverty who sometimes struggle with traditional classroom procedures and practices. These students need something new and unique and engaging for them to buy in to what you're teaching. When I teach Economics, I utilize a system in which students practice using and managing money. Using classroom money printed on green paper and simplified paper checks, they have to pay rent for their desks and pay taxes, they get paychecks twice a month and they can earn bonus money (usually for earning high grades), and they can receive fines if they fail to meet expectations or miss class (which improves attendance and behavior). I let them buy their desks if they want to, and I let them buy other students' desks if they both sign a rental agreement. We track all expenses on a bank log/check register sheet and I give them certain privileges if they have lots of money, such as writing one less short constructed response on a test. When I teach Civics, I form a class government, with students fulfilling the roles of representatives, senators, cabinet members, judges, and, of course, voters (I'm the president, naturally). We meet as a class congress and come up with new classroom policies, then we have the cabinet members check them, then the whole class votes, then the judges count the votes and decide if it's "constitutional." This system can be almost entirely student-led, but it does take lots of guidance from me. In addition to these two innovations, I am always trying new and different activities, student groupings, techniques, debate/discussion formats, etc. It's good for you and your students, and if something doesn't work out that well, it's not a big deal; what matters is that you tried and learned from it.


You have to have systems for everything
As some of you may have inferred from my innovations for Economics and Civics, having systems and structures to keep track of and organize everything is crucial. I've been told more than once by students, fellow teachers, and administrators that I'm the most organized teacher they've ever met. As I mentioned earlier, you have to plan out everything. If you don't do this, you'll find yourself less productive, stressed, and frazzled, and your students will notice. Furthermore, you have to teach some of your systems to your students. Just one example is how you will pass out papers to them (always from the east side of the room to the west, for example). What's so important about this "discovery" is this is the kind of thing you don't learn in teacher preparation programs, and often no one will tell you about this or help you with this — you have to figure it out on your own. You may have to print out additional class roster spreadsheets to track attendance, participation, behavior infractions, etc. The simple summary is that being organized makes everything easier. Teachers do so much behind the scenes — the kinds of things that would make a non-teacher fail almost instantly if he/she tried our job for a day.

Poverty
As someone who teaches in a low-income neighborhood, I see the devastating effects of poverty every day: poor attendance, lack of engagement, no sense of urgency, no desire to learn ("I've never seen anyone succeed because of an education, so why should I try?"). Systemic poverty is by far the single-biggest factor that impedes individual and thus societal improvement. Many students living in poverty have a warped view of the world, of what education is and what is does, of authority figures, of success, and of life in general. But it's not completely their fault. Even still, I've learned that we can't let poverty absolve people of their poor decisions, nor can we use it as a crutch or an excuse. Students in poverty can learn and grow and achieve, and it's our job to help them do that because without us, it might not happen. The simple fact is that disadvantaged parents beget disadvantaged children. But teachers, schools, and education can help to break the cycle of poverty. The challenge is, however, to convince kids in poverty that this is true because everything they've seen or heard or been taught contradicts our message. The most difficult part of my job is that I teach poor students. Many of them, however, have persevered and achieved great things. Even though I know it won't happen for all of them, the thing that's on my mind every day is how I can get more of them to overcome and achieve.


Parents
There is no doubt in my mind that parents shape their kids to an extent beyond most other factors. To put it simply, students with parents that care do better. I have some incredibly sad stories of bad parenting, and I've seen the effects of this firsthand. One time I had a girl come in crying. I asked what was wrong and she said that her mom forgot her birthday. As you might expect, this girl struggled in school immensely. I'm not a parent myself so I can't claim to be an expert, but I see too often that parents are almost afraid to upset their kids or something. I see a lack of boundaries, accountability, and discipline. Students have told me that their family is struggling with money and that's why they don't have a notebook, yet they'll come in on a Monday with a brand-new phone. I've had parents tell me that they "don't know what to do" with their son/daughter anymore. Whenever I hear that I always think to myself, "Hmm, my dad never had that problem." If you are a parent reading this, please make your kids read actual books and limit their screen time (phones/social media especially). Be a positive role model, lead by example, and hold your kids accountable for their actions.


Reading
As hinted at just now, I have seen that reading, or a lack thereof, is of paramount significance in a student's life and future. Today's culture is overly saturated with distractions that make reading real books seem like a last resort for entertainment, but, truly, students who read do better in school and in life. I've had freshmen outperform seniors and immigrants outperform citizens simply because they were students who read during their free time. Poverty plays a part in this. Studies have proven that when kids grow up in households without books and parents who read, they're behind in school. Working-class parents typically don't have time to read and came from working-class families themselves (the cycle of poverty is clearly evident). I cannot stress enough that kids need to be reading. We all do. It is THE skill.

Phones and social media
Inarguably, smart phones and the Internet have forever changed our world. Kids, teenagers, and adults alike are addicted. It should come as no surprise that this addiction is having adverse effects in our classrooms. Teachers are forced to fight an almost unwinnable battle each class period. Students are earning lower grades than they should be earning because they missed an important part of a lesson or they aren't getting their work done because they are distracted by their phones. They aren't doing their homework because there's no one telling them to put the phone away and they don't have the self-control to put it away themselves, because why stop doing something that's pleasurable? Students don't understand that using a phone while someone is speaking to them is disrespectful. Parents are calling and texting their kids during class. Parents are buying their kids phones instead of school supplies. Parents aren't taking phones away when kids are in trouble.

For the final exam this past week, I had students turn in their phones to me in order to receive their final. It was amazing. It was a great feeling. Next year I will not teach if a phone is visible. They will put their phone in the phone parking lot, give it to me, or keep it in their backpacks. It will be a battle at first, but it will change everything. This year I didn't do a good enough job of making them keep their phones away, and it caused lots of problems. I finally learned my lesson.

I have also noticed that social media specifically is negatively affecting teenagers. Many of my students complain about not having friends despite having hundreds of "friends" on social media. Many of them have told me they wish they had a friend. I ask, "Well, who are you texting all the time then?" They say they aren't really that close with anyone. Social media is making these teenagers kind of socially awkward: they're more comfortable texting/messaging than they are talking and hanging out in person. The constant comparisons to others' lives being made while viewing social media is making kids anxious, unconfident, and depressed. The classic economic principle of unintended consequences is all too relevant here. I just hope that in the future I can keep them off of social media in my classes.

My creation: The Phone Parking Lot.

Teenagers are very perceptive

One of the biggest things I've learned (that I was never taught, by the way) is that students respond to your mood. That is, if the teacher is calm, the students will be more calm, and if the teacher is emotional, the students will be too. They listen closely to you and see you as either an example of what to be or what not to be. It's always surprising when a student points out or recites something I said in class once. It's always like, "You still remember that?" With this in mind, I believe it's incredibly important to always be cognizant that your students are watching you very closely. They see my habits, my quirks, my systems and routines, everything. I always try to handle things tactfully and calmly because I want to be a positive, professional role model.

We have to teach them how to be students
Something that became more evident this year than ever before is that most of my students didn't understand the difference between professional and casual. We want our classrooms to be professional, academic environments, but do we take enough time to teach our students what that even means? Similar to the idea that telling a student to "pay attention" is way too vague (Does "pay attention" tell students where they should be looking? Does it tell them how they should be listening?), asking them to behave professionally must be taught. I can't count the number of times I've tried to begin class with half of the students still looking down at their phones and/or listening to music. The bell rang, the teacher is standing at the front waiting to speak, yet the students aren't ready. Some, I've learned, don't know what "ready" is unless we tell them. This at least partly due to my students' home lives. Working-class families are less likely to attend formal events such as symphonies, operas, plays, and so on, thus the notion that at some places you have to act differently than you do at home can be a foreign concept to some. We have to teach them how to shift their mindsets once they're in our classrooms, how to act, how to respond, how to behave in general. What may be common sense in well-to-do suburban schools is not in urban schools.


Teachers: Follow your own advice
Since I was the last teacher to leave for summer break (not exaggerating — I left at 7 p.m.), I know now that I need to do a better job of following my own advice. Don't procrastinate, don't be lazy, don't make excuses, ask for help sometimes, and work hard. The week before finals I decided to watch 13 Reasons Why instead of grade, and that led me to being way behind the week of finals and up to the last day of the year. I learned my lesson. 

09 February 2017

I'm Not Wrong



The idea I'm going to attempt to convey in this post is something that I've been mulling over for a while now. It's difficult to say it clearly and concisely, and without it sounding arrogant, but the short version is this: given all of the evidence around me, given my knowledge of history, given my knowledge of government, given my knowledge of the U.S. Constitution, given my education, given my upbringing based on respect, morality, justice, inclusiveness, equity, and multiculturalism, given my travel experiences, given my respect for science and reason, and given the types of people that support the ideas that clash against mine, I'm not wrong.

I know this already sounds pretentious, cocky, and anger-inducing, but keep reading. Here's the thing: generally we think of the people with the opposite worldview as the brainwashed ones, the ignorant ones, the backwards ones, and the close-minded ones. Right? What's amazing about this, and what gives me pause sometimes, is that those people think the exact same things about us. So, the uneducated Fox-News viewer that has hardly left home, never really travels, never hangs out with different types of people, never reads anything besides whacked-out conservative websites, this person thinks I'm the ignorant one. This is how I know I'm not on the wrong side of all this.

It goes without saying that I haven't always been right about every single thing, but I also don't typically make decisions without first researching and understanding the topic. So, most of the things I've been wrong about have had to do with everyday decisions, purchases, which girl to date, etc. That's part of life, right? I've never decided that climate change must not be real because the politicians I vote for say it's not real; I don't make those kinds of heavy decisions in the moment or based only on what I'm hearing. Also, if I'm not sure about something, or know that I haven't learned enough about it, I keep my damn trap shut. Furthermore, I'm not trying to suggest that my opinion on every policy would be "correct." For example, I don't really know what's the best thing for the U.S. to do with or for Israel, specifically with regard to the Palestinian conflict. It's complicated and I just don't know what's best. While some things are simply matters of opinion (i.e., how large the military should be), others are, I think, issues of morality that are difficult to assess or label as "right" or "wrong" because one morality is not universal.

Hopefully that's making sense so far. I don't think I'm always right about everything or know everything, but I know I'm not wrong on a handful of issues, topics, and beliefs. I'm not saying my way is always the best way, or the most virtuous or righteous way, either. Finally, I'm not saying, "Hey, you should think like me!"

Now, because I've been told so many times that I'm brainwashed and that I need to hear the truth, let's take a deeper look at the types of people who tell me such things. Here's what I'd like to do: examine, analyze, and compare the types of people who generally agree with me, and those who do not.

First, let's start with those who generally do not agree with me—and trust me, I know these people. These are my family members and friends. I see some of these people regularly. I hear the hate speech, the misinformation, the racist comments, the parroting of Fox, the outlandish conspiracy theories ("globalists!"), and the blatant lies come out of their mouths on a regular basis. Okay? I'm not isolated. I keep my ideological enemies close. These people, in general:
  • are poorly educated or uneducated
  • did not go to college
  • do not read books
  • suck at spelling and grammar
  • have blue-collar jobs
  • are more likely to have been to jail or prison
  • have been or are in poor health
  • have little to no travel experience
  • do not have diverse friends
  • do not leave their hometowns often
  • are more religious
  • talk more than they listen
  • lack professional skills
  • lack artistic abilities
  • do not attend cultural performances (such as symphonies, operas, theatre, etc.)
  • have limited professional connections
  • listen to conservative radio
  • watch Fox News
  • repeat what their friends and like-minded family members say without doing research
  • believe that they know more than others and are somehow qualified to inform others
  • are thin-skinned/incredibly insecure
  • feel the need to belittle and insult others
  • threaten others
  • live in constant fear
  • are more likely to own guns
  • vote Republican

Second, let's examine those who typically share my views. These are my good friends, my educated family members, my mentors, intellectuals, scientists, doctors, educators, professors, lawyers, artists, and other professionals I know and respect. These people, in general:
  • are educated, and oftentimes highly educated
  • are always reading books on a variety of subjects
  • have proficient spelling and grammar skills
  • have white-color jobs that require high levels of skill
  • have never been to jail or prison
  • are largely healthy and health-conscious 
  • have moderate to extensive travel experiences
  • have diverse friend groups
  • regularly visit other parts of the state or country
  • are less religious or not religious
  • listen more than they talk
  • possess many professional skills
  • possess various artistic abilities and have spent time studying the arts
  • regularly attend cultural performances
  • have strong professional networks
  • listen to National Public Radio (NPR) and other accredited news sources
  • watch and read news from various, credible news agencies, not including Fox News
  • research on their own before reaching conclusions
  • are secure with themselves
  • have no reason to belittle others
  • do not threaten others
  • choose not to live in fear
  • are less likely to own guns
  • vote Democratic

Before you freak out, remember that I wrote "in general" above both of those lists. And so, what do I do with this information? Whose opinions should I value more? I do believe that differing opinions are necessary in a free and democratic society, but today we're getting further away from mere differences and going towards truth versus propaganda and falsehoods. Recently the term "alternative facts" was presented by an adviser of Donald Trump. This is in every way unacceptable, and I will not tolerate it.

It's clear that the people who are more likely to agree with me are much more qualified and informed individuals. At this point, it's very difficult for me to respect the opinions of people from the other group. I will listen to them, and I respect their right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness, but I do not hold their opinions in high regard. They've shown me time and time again that I shouldn't. I do respect the opinions of educated conservatives, but alas I know very few of them.

When a candidate for the president of the United States claims that Mexicans are rapists and murderers and that Muslims are terrorists, I know I'm not wrong when I stand against those comments.

When that same candidate mocks a disabled reporter, I'm not wrong when I feel disgust.

When people try to say that climate change is a hoax despite overwhelming scientific proof, I know I'm not wrong when I believe in climate change.

When a person cares more about an unborn fetus than a disadvantaged baby born to a disadvantaged mother, I know I'm not wrong when I believe the mother and baby deserve help.

When I see one political party consistently vote against funding for our military veterans, I know I'm not wrong when I oppose those decisions.

When I see one political party loosen gun restrictions to allow mentally unstable individuals easier access to guns, and knowing that gun violence is drastically higher here than in other advanced nations, I'm not wrong when I'm against that.

When I see a waste of space like Betsy DeVos nominated to head the Department of Education, and I see her stumble her way through every question at her Senate hearing, I'm not wrong when I say that someone with no experience in public education should not be the head of the Department of Education. I'm also not wrong when I think it's sick that all but two Republican senators voted for her, many of whom received generous campaign donations from her family, instead of voting in the best interest of America's students.

When I see millions of Americans clamor to waste billions of dollars on a border wall when those billions could be put to countless other, more-productive uses, I'm not wrong when I'm against the wall.

When I see scientists and innovators discovering more ways to use renewable energy and begin to save our planet, I'm not wrong when I support their endeavors.

When I see the Supreme Court declare that same-sex marriage is constitutional and the right of all individuals, I'm not wrong when I agree with that.

When I see that on average women are still paid less than men, I'm not wrong when I think that's wrong.

When I see Republican senators not fulfil their constitutional duty by defiantly choosing not to give Barack Obama's Supreme Court pick a hearing as prescribed by the Constitution, I'm not wrong when I think that's utter garbage.

When I see that most of the U.S. and the world are standing against and resisting this new administration, I know I'm not wrong when I resist with them.

There are many more examples I could use, but hopefully my point is clear. A conservative could write a post just like this, making the claim that people like me are wrong, but in this particular case, I'm right, and I know I'm right.

Conclusion: In general, moderates, liberals, and progressives are right and conservatives are wrong on most of the pressing issues of our time. Period. History will show us who was right and who was wrong, but I already know we are on the right side of history. Remember: the conservatives in the 1770s wanted to remain a colony of England; the conservatives of the 1860s wanted to keep slavery; the conservatives of 1920 didn't want women to be allowed to vote. Progressives, time and time again, are the victors. The world and people change, and we must change with it, or be left behind in the dust.

One of us is wrong. Based on the types of people that tend to agree with me, I can conclude that it's not me.